Struggles We Go Through

So many thing we go through in life that we wonder why. You sit around and you wonder if you had just did something different if you could of had waht you wanted. I sit here and wonder what it is that i did wrong. Why is it that everyone has what i want and need so bad. I have distance myself from people that has what i need. It is not fair that I cant have it. I wish that things would so work out for me in the way i want it . I am in love with them man of my dreams and i have a wonderful daughter that i love with all my heart but my life is not full. It is missing something that yet to be filled.It can not be filled because it is not able to be filled. I will have a empty place until i can fill it.

I was almost able to fill it. It took me 2 months to finally see that it was not going to be filled. @ months of hoping that it would be filled and then it works against me yet again. It will never happen for me and I watch all my friends fill there lives and extremely happy. I just want to crawl in a hole and not leave it. I try to put myself with others to make my life seem full but it only last until they are gone. Others dont like to be near me for long.They always leave me and i am back to being wanting more. I a, empty and want to be full. How can I fill this emptiness that will never be filled the way i need it to be filled?No one will never know......